Grace celebrated her 4th birthday with Jesus and we celebrated her life here at home

Its hard to believe that my little girl turned 4 ~Four~ Four years of many missed events, triumphs, milestones, smiles, boo boos, drawings, giggles and playtime with her big sister Emma. I wonder what her sweet voice sounds like. Are her eyes blue like mine or brown like her brothers and sisters. Is her hair curly like mine and her brothers or straight like Emma's. I miss the chubby thighs, dressing her up in all the cute dresses and outfits I saved for her, the leather 50's jacket her big brother Drew found, and the tiny tiny converse shoes.

Four love filled balloons gently floating up to heaven to join in her birthday celebration today...

I miss you pumpkin.... someday we will celebrate your birthday together.

All my love...

My gift to Grace and Christian

Today, I finally did something I've wanted to for a very long time. I had my two angels names applied permanently to my skin. I have for many years wanted to tattoo their names "somewhere".  Some places I considered were around my wrist like a bracelet or on my inner wrists with wings... I met with my tattoo artist and threw some ideas around with him and when he showed me these angel wings I knew thats exactly what I wanted.

I did this today for them. My memorial for my little babies I miss so incredibly much. Grace's birthday just passed a few days ago and Christian's is coming up next week. This is my birthday present to them.

It still needs some touch-up work. After 3 hours of pain I was done and couldn't take anymore. I am happy with it and it makes me feel good to show the world that my two little ones WERE here for a brief moment and rocked my world.